Thursday, December 6, 2012

Sad Day

This is a sad day. My poetry class is over and I have finished my portfolio. Being that I need to be forced to write poetry, I probably won't post poems of my own for a very long time so I figured I'd share some I haven't before just for my own sentiment:)


Under a Screen of Stars
 Do you ever wonder
what we would be like,
how we would act,
what we would think about
if our only distraction was the monolithic moon
that parades through the battle-worn window of
my 1996 Mitsubishi?
If our only worry
was that the chaste November air would burn
too cold too soon causing the fall-kissed leaves to
shrivel,
leave their branches,
and die a beautiful death under our feet?

Do you ever wonder
if we would see a different world outside of this
smudgy window
given no phenomenal HD picture to compare it with?
Would the stars scream louder?
Would the mountains flood with violets?
Would the wind smell like mint?
Would the grass scratch like wool?

Would rocks fluff like pillows?
Would clouds run like zebras?
Would weeds bloom like tutus?
Would tulips sing like crickets?
Would dirt melt like wax?

Would the rain taste like freedom?
Would thunder tickle like joy?
Would earthquakes roar like passion?
Would heat waves freeze like love?

Do you? Do you ever wonder?



Armageddon
The sky is falling.
The sun has shattered, dispersed into the galaxy
yet people on Earth are still lolling

as if the planets aren’t calling
“Mercy!” “Mercy!”
The sky is falling.

Saturn’s rings are spiraling
out of control, begging pity.
Yet people on Earth are still lolling

as if Jupiter’s scalding
soil hasn’t melted into a polar sea.
The sky is falling.

Mercury’s moons are brawling
death, weak and dreary,
yet people on Earth are still lolling

as if the Ozone isn’t walling
the world’s last story.
The sky is falling,
yet people on Earth are still lolling.


Deus benedicat tibi amicus meus
The conceited light sprinting out of my
desk lamp makes my eyes feel as if they have
been freeze dried and chopped into tiny
pieces with a fork. The lead sticking out of my
mechanical pencil makes a foul noise
when it dirties my binder paper sounding
like rusty nails scratching a brand new,
untouched mirror. The haughty air screaming from
the heating vent teases my skin causing
my pores to secrete confused seeds of sweat
which, in turn, humidify my body
into a forgotten pile of seasoned
vegetables that have been sitting in the
microwave for three and a half whole days. 

Right now, your body is draped in white sheets.
Your tortured black hair is smooth, by your face.
Your once opaque cheeks now burn without heat.
Your sharp lips are indented with red lace.

Corpus meum ardet cum jactura tua’s.

The cancerous demon that invades your body has signed an armistice with God. It reads:
I, Wormwood, hereby agree
To leave the body of Miss Holly
On Earth. In turn, her soul will
Be presented to the hooves of
Our Father Down Below.

But it is my body that burns with the loss of yours.

I saw Heaven standing open and there before me
was a white horse, whose rider is called
Faithful and True.

The apostle John says that justice will
judge when He comes back.
That the Devil will be forced
to decimate every innocent contract.

The armies of heaven were following him.
Out of his mouth comes a sharp sword
with which to strike down…

Hell.

I turn off my desk lamp,
drop my mechanical pencil,
and walk away from the heating vent.
A frigid breeze threads through the drapes
and I curl up under clouds of down comforters.

Corpus meum ardet cum jactura tua’s.

I surrender unto an all-consuming sleep.
Deus benedicat tibi amicus meus.
As I surrender unto sleep,
I pray.
God bless you, my friend.

The Battle at Marathon
A dense fog slithers between skyscrapers and anxious bodies.
It manifests an assiduous stench of patience, persistence.
Thousands of murmurs circulate through my ears,
then rest on the tops of my shoes and tips of my fingers.

This is it, I think, staring up and down miles of people.
The corners of the sun haven’t yet breeched the horizon,
and yet my insides are a welling inferno.
The back of my neck drips sweet beads of contentment.

Anxious bodies have become overwhelmingly eager,
ready to break through the gates of the unknown.
Exhaustion, bliss, angst, ecstasy all wait patiently beyond,
prying on our naiveté, our hope, our diligence.

A dismal road taunts me; its speckled cement hardens with every step.
The gates draw nearer. Exhaustion, bliss, angst, and ecstasy attack.

Psalm 139: A Pantoum
I am a sinner.
Oh Lord, you have searched me and you know me.
Because of this, I fear you.
Where can I flee from your presence?

Oh Lord, you have searched me and you know me.
You know that I am conflicted.
Where can I flee from your presence?
I am ashamed.

You must know that I am conflicted.
You created my inmost being.
You know me better than I know myself.
Your eyes saw my unformed body.

You created my inmost being.
Why am I so quick to turn against you?
Your eyes saw my unformed body.
Why is it so hard to bare my soul?

Why am I so quick to turn against you?
How precious to me are your thoughts, o God!
Why is it so hard to bare my soul?
I was woven together in the depths of the earth.

How precious to me are your thoughts, o God!
Despite my faults, you instilled love in me.
I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
That love will never fail.

Despite my faults, you instilled love in me.
Search me, o God, and know my heart.
Your love will never fail.
Lead me in the way everlasting.

Search me, o God, and know my heart.
With this request, I fear you.
Lead me in the way everlasting.
For I am a sinner.

Disease in War
News reached us that they were coming for war;
ordered us to make a new home inside the city walls.
My eyes fell upon him—torn with sleep and trembling
at the mercy of disease.
My heart tightened, struggled to beat at the thought of his death.
Oh the irony that mocked his perfect innocence.

We were stuffed inside, all the Athenian innocents.
Exasperated weeping echoed through the barriers of war.
We knew, or so thought, that this would bring certain death,
but none saw the evil lurking in the walls.
Fear spread like disease,
but Pericles ignored our trembling.

My baby, sweet baby, still trembling
with innocence.
The lingering days only worsened his disease
as if the battles outside bore in his blood, war.
His scorching, bare body desperately acted as his barrier,
but ultimately invited the eminent pain of death.

For years we had been desensitized to raging death,
but a new despair triggered our trembling.
For in those pseudo, protective walls
prowled a sadist of innocence.
One by one it found joy in inflicting bodies with war,
falsifying itself as a humble disease.

Woe was my soul as I watched my baby’s disease
slowly curse his faultless body and welcome death.
What is just that the Council’s war
inflicts us with its avid trembling?
We were honorable and my baby was innocent!
Fraudulent was the protection of those demonic walls.

Soon thousands upon thousands lay mangled at the feet of the walls.
This paradox of a disease
found pleasure in scarring our precious innocence.
My pure baby had seen the shadows of death
tormenting his dreams. His soul trembled.
His soul quietly accepted the declaration of war.

I tell you, no walls can stop the Peloponnesian disease
that disturbs souls with war and trembling.
We must fight, as my baby did, to overcome the death of innocence.







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